tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-380345602011-04-21T21:44:03.020-07:00growingspirithttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05540656040346654673noreply@blogger.comBlogger11100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-38034560.post-1166034444615043772006-12-13T09:50:00.000-08:002006-12-13T10:27:24.626-08:00<span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">Well.. as all the starts points i m gonna waste a little of my time writting about me and the real purpouse of this blog...<br />Few days ago i ve realized Im a really undeveloped spirit.. i mean i thought i was something im not.. and thats a hard lesson to learn...<br />Calm down... i disnt kill nobody.. i just know that eventhought im well graduated in the professional career im kinda dumb in my personal life<br />as u can see im an idiot .. i m a jerk... i mean this is not depression, this is reallity...<br />As u can see english isnt my mother language and i dont live in an english language country... <span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">so i d like to ask for sorry about my "bad"english... but i think most of u will understand me...</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">The reason i m wrinting in english is that more ppl will be able to read it (as if someone will read it) and i can practice a little too...</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">and this is not depression or something like that... im not bored or something.. i m just growning up.. but its not just a moment of my life... i feel the change in me..</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">I was working at night .. and the shift wasnt that hard.. i mean there wasnt much things to do... so i went into my "relax room" ( a place there i can sleep if there s nobody to help.. i mean no work to do.. well as u might realise im a medical doctor.. but this is not important in the context of this blog.. not now) and i couldnt sleep .. i mean.. my head didnt let me shut down coz i was thinking about my personality and my actions as a human... i dont do cruelties not even hurt directly ppl... but sometimes ( mostly of them) im an idiot.. a jerk... a jackass...</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">i m not a religious guy... i m more like an agnostic guy... but if we think as a kardecist, i must be like a 3rd world country... or even a 4th.. </span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">All i d like to say is that i have a huge dificultie in let things go and sometimes i get agressive with ppl that cant understand me... i m not that patient with ignorance ( not even mine ignorance) and i dont have a life.. i mean .. i m not a easy going guy... i dont use to go out.. all that i m good at.. is at work... and thats really sad.. i dont have much friends ( i mean personal "close" friends.. i have lots of professional contacts and as a professional ppl loves me.. but my cellphone rarelly recieve a personal call .. like: will u come with us to that party? or something like that... ).</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">I m so tired of it... and thats why here i am.. i m trying to improve my spirit and become a better man...</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">and each momment i ll write things here about my evolution...</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">I have to change lots of things inside me...</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">and i hope this is the concrete thing i ve needed to change...</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">like a notepad.. so i can see where i m growing and where i m not...</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">i hope that ppl that is passing throught the same momente as im passing might share this moment with me...</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">and i know it will be a hard journey.. but this is life is all about...</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">As the music says: "its evolution baby !!!"</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">TY for your attention..</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 255, 255);">Cya.</span><br /></span></span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/38034560-116603444461504377?l=27reasons.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>growingspirithttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05540656040346654673noreply@blogger.com0